|Posted on April 13, 2012 at 12:05 AM|
My 9 year old son and I had an interesting conversation this morning. Heck...we have one every morning. But, this was one of those really teachable moments. It was a time for me to kick in and truly listen to his concerns. He was seeking some answers in a serious way.
Trust. That is what he was asking me about. He shared that even though he loves God with his whole heart, he can't quite trust Him for everything. Boy, could I relate to that one. I think I am still struggling with that at my ripe old age of forty-something. Truth be told, I believe every living person who follows Christ struggles with that issue.
The key is to lean on God with all your weight and even if you fall from where you want to be, He is still supporting you. Get it? From where YOU WANT to be. Not necessarily where HE WANTS you to be.
I can think of many times I wanted things that were good. At least they seemed good in my mind. Things like healing for someone I deeply love, or provision for a bill to be paid on time, or a certain job, or a certain decision to be made in my favor. All those things are good. But maybe not good for ME.
See, God knows the big picture and the final outcome and we never realize beforehand where something or someone might take us. But, He does. And, He leads us toward His plan, not ours.
Oh, He lets us have our way every now and then, and I can say from experience that those allowances can lead to rough places. I remember once when my husband was doing a lot of traveling in his music ministry and our oldest son was small. I got it in my head that we needed a big ole' conversion van so we could all be comfortable on our road trips. Goodness, we were traveling for the Lord! Surely He would give us what we wanted.
We found one at a car dealer nearby and test drove it. Man, was it just perfect for us! It had all the bells and whistles. A television for my son, comfy lounge chairs for me and my husband and plenty of room for music equipment and luggage. Everything but the kitchen sink! It was the ticket!
I prayed every day for God to bless us with that van. Guess what? He didn't.
And we survived just fine without it. We missed out on the gas it would have taken for us to just drive the thing around town. We missed out on having to maneuver it around grocery store parking lots and drive thru windows. The payment on it would have been way out of our reach, even though it was a pre-owned vehicle. In my mind God would have provided the money for those huge monthly bills, but He knew what a strain it would have placed on us financially. Many times I have looked back and thanked God for NOT giving us that van.
There are lots of other examples I could give you from my life, but the one lesson on trust that sticks out to me more than any other is when my Daddy was dying with cancer. As a family, we had trusted and prayed and anointed and did everything the Bible says to do and it just was not bringing a healing. I had two choices.
I could either chose to believe that God wasn't listening and didn't care, or I could chose to believe that God's way was better than my way. And, it was.
The healing did come. For my Daddy and for us. He received the ultimate healing! Better than any physical healing we could have expected. He now resides in heavenly places and waits on us to join him one day.
We healed emotionally as a family and have become stronger people because of our trial with Daddy's illness and death. God has shown us how to take our experience and use it for His glory! We now have the knowledge to reach out and encourage others in a way that we never could before.
So, my friend, if you are struggling with trusting God with your everything like my little boy is, let me say that we all learn how to trust Him one experience at a time. Each time will make you stronger and increase your faith. Trusting gets easier and easier and you learn that even if the worst of the worst does happen, it's still going to be ok. Why? Because God loves you and has good things for you. Always.
Trust me. I know what I'm talking about.
"Fear of man will prove to be a snare, but whoever trusts in the Lord is kept safe." (Proverbs 29:25 NIV)
Love and Blessings,